I know someone who is getting a "dead inside" tattoo.
I almost stole the idea till I realized I am NOT dead inside. I am vibrant and healthy and active and full, if not overflowing with love for my friends and family. Maybe dead to the outside, but inside I have my own secret garden.

I am worse than goths sometimes, seriously, the way i whine.

But its becoming more and more apparent to me that I am indeed a masochist, and I want it heavily and I want more. Right now I am overflowing with creativity and appreciation for life; and why? because of a scene i did last night that I consider heavy. Not heavy as in you see the bruising heavy, heavy as in incapacitating (temporarily) heavy.
Destructive? awesome? fulfilling? amazing? terrible? wonderful?

I love duality