I don't write here much

Somewhat successfully i've managed to compartmentalize more and more of my life to the point literally no one knows where I am at any one time unless I am with them. It's nice. It's hard.

What's really hard is being a sex worker. Without going into details, I work as one, and it's the most dynamic position i've ever been in. The money for time ratio is great, but the mental energy consumed is fantastic. I wish sometimes I had a normal job- sometime to eat up time and something I could only have to care about for a select few hours a day. Its also spoiled me- I have no concept of working for money any more and im sorry to lose that- i used to work 14 hours a day when i was a kid and paychecks were so treasured. Now getting anywhere from $200 to $2000 dollars at once whenever i work is so easy. I really shouldnt complain about that. I took the semester off to travel, and I have. I went out west, I went to central america, im going to an alternative adult camp, im going to asia, im going to vegas, I might go to europe- Can I really complain?

I think i just need a hobby. I read too quickly to just buy a book every time I'm bored- that would be 3+ books a week. I've definitely picked up a bad habit too, but im not going to write about that right now. If my life isnt where I want it to be in 2011, I will probably just join Peace Corps or the armed services. preferably the armed services; i would love to have a government issued assault rifle.

I'm finding more and more every day that life is duality. My job is a wonderful example of that.

Did you know one of realPlayer's visualizations is this awesome dancing sheep?

Also it's complete bullshit about the PirateBay ruling. Compete bullshit. Related: the DRM-free files on itunes cost more. Also bullshit. Bureaucrats don't understand yet you cant control digital media without supressing freedom of speech. Pirate on.

Moar Metal

The kingdom of sorrow CD was finally released- I have NO idea if it's good or not but I'm excited. Their song "Buried in Black" is particularly brutal. The Children of bodom cd seems like a failsafe option; anything involving blood or the consumption of alcohol is cool, and their album is called blooddrunk. Insant classic material.

In other news im going through a bit of a sleepless spell. I havent slept properly since sunday night. I'm exhausted, but not tired. I see nonexistent movement out of the corner of my eye and the simplest thought processes have come painful. I'm pretty sure my genetics TA thinks I like him. I stayed after class to ask something, and he was talking to me and i totally zoned out and i was just staring at him. I forgot what I asked and I excused myself.

Suspendc is this weekend! Wheeee!

Funny neutrino tale:

Calculations derived from the relationship between the formation of helium and the creation and release of neutrinos in the sun’s photosphere can be used to predict the rate of fusion in the core. However, until the early twenty first century, electron neutrino detectors were only picking up a third of the predicted neutrino flux from the sun, which should have dispersed into space according to the inverse square law. Theoretical physicists applied mathematical reasoning and physics to suggest patterns of neutrino oscillation between electron neutrinos, tau neutrinos, and muon neutrinos; after a certain distance, oscillating neutrino types would become evenly distributed. When new detectors were made that could detect all three types of neutrinos, the predicted neutrino output was measured, verifying the theoretical physicists’ hypothesis.

AND NOW YOU KNOW!